Two days ago, I had something happen that was terribly emotionally upsetting. I got the typical headache from crying, but was so relieved I could cry that I was willing to deal with the headache. Whenever I’m taking an antidepressant I am unable to cry. Right now I’m not only on Cymbalta, but also aripiprazole which enhances the Cymbalta. I couldn’t even cry when my mother passed away last September. Anyway, I went right upstairs to see a friend so I could talk about the situation, crying the entire time we talked. Afterwards I felt a bit better for having cried and “unloaded” on my friend, yet I was still very upset.
The next day I woke up feeling as if my body was in a trash compactor. Everything from my head to my toes was stiff and painful. I knew the excessive pain and stiffness was due to the stress of dealing with a serious emotional issue. Before Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and a brain injury, I was a person who got tension headaches and neck pain when I was upset. Now I feel like my entire body has been crushed.
There is such a link between our pain and our emotions. Over the past eight years or so I’ve learned to be a calm and easy-going person and I have found that to be such an asset in controlling my symptoms. Yet we all have to deal with emotional issues in this life. During those times of emotional duress we can do nothing to stop our symptoms from getting out of control. In this case, crying really hard and sharing with an empathetic friend didn’t help.
I believe we can learn to control our day to day emotions by learning to only get excited when an issue really warrants it. We can also learn to accept our illnesses/symptoms and thus have a calmer outlook on our lives. Yet, unfortunately when we are in a situation where we are hurt, sad and/or angry we can look forward to a maddening flare of symptoms. Doesn’t seem fair, does it?