A Relaxing (kind of) Weekend

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I have a rule that I always stay in my pajamas during the weekend. My rule keeps me from leaving my apartment to do something that will increase my fatigue and staying in my pajamas keeps me in a more relaxed state of mind. Because I also have a lot of weird sensitivities from the brain injury, I often feel much better in loose fitting clothing.

So last night I got all my chores done and put on my pjs. Friday night is always the start of my weekend. Since it was after dinner I decided that I would color before bed time.

Coloring 1

This is me sitting at the table trying to color(with Niecy’s help!).

Coloring 2

Then, this is me sitting at the table 15 minutes later trying to color(with Lizzie’s help!). Anyone who has a cat knows that when they settle on your reading or coloring it’s almost impossible to remove them. I cleaned up my mess of pencils, etc. and went to lay in bed and read.

This morning I slept longer than usual and was roused by a friend who had a procedure on her back and needs daily dressing changes for the next few days. Since I was a nurse before the car accident, I was the natural choice for dressing changes. I got up and scurried around, feeding the cats, taking my morning meds, brushing my teeth and all that. Since I still had some time before my friend came over I started a project that I’ve been dying to get done.

Wall Hanging

I’ve had the rolled paper tubes attached to the backing for a couple of weeks, but finally got the flowers and birds glued on. I am so happy with the way it turned out and it looks great over my bed!

I no sooner got the wall hanging hung up when someone knocked on my door. I let my friend Riccardo in and he presented me with the nicest Easter gift.

Easter Gift

Isn’t it a fun gift?! Anyway, there was another knock on the door and it was another friend who stopped by. So the three of us chatted for a few minutes(We all live in the same apartment building) and then Riccardo left. Ann and I had a really nice visit.

Today was not a quiet, restful day, but it was such a pleasant day that I feel too happy to let the fatigue bother me. To me, sometimes the fun is worth the fatigue even though I know the fatigue could kick my butt for the next two weeks.

Anyway, that’s been my weekend so far. Who knows what tomorrow will bring. . .

Brain Fog Ahoy!

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This week I let myself get too tired and too anxious and now I am a blob of brain fog sitting in a chair.

One night I went with a friend to have dinner and shopping for another friend’s birthday. I got home at 11 pm and by the time I got wound down it was a midnight bedtime. The next night I got carried away and colored until 1 am.

Next came the birthday party and it was 11:30 pm before I got home. However, at the party we briefly discussed the bedbug problem we have here at out apartment complex. I got so wound up about the bedbugs that I never went to bed that night. I spent hours on my computer looking up ways to avoid getting bedbugs and then ways to get rid of them. All night I had that anxious feeling at the base of my throat and in my stomach.

Now I’ve got the worst case of brain fog I’ve had since immediately after I suffered the brain injury. The night before last I slept 10 hours after being up for 36 hours straight. Last night I slept 12 1/2 hours. A half hour after I got up this afternoon a friend came by for coffee and laughed about my not knowing what time it was. I had no idea that the clocks were supposed to be moved forward for daylight savings. So while I am a bit rested I am feeling very, very foggy.

Getting to go out to eat and shopping was definitely worth it. Coloring until 1 am was probably not a good thing. Of course my friend’s birthday party was worth it. But getting so worked up over bedbugs was ridiculous!  Even though the woman who lives directly above me has had problems with them since shortly after I moved in eight months ago, I haven’t gotten them. I take recommended precautions and that’s all I can do. Worrying and getting major anxiety will not prevent bedbugs.

I messed up but must move on. Usually when I am confronted by something that could cause me worry, I try to think about what I could do to solve the “problem.” I then take appropriate action or, if there is no action to be taken, I try to let it go. I’ve gotten better and better at letting things go, but obviously I’m not perfect at it. I’m now paying the price with brain fog that will not go away until it’s ready to.

We all deal with worries and we all have different ways of dealing with those worries. The point of this post is to acknowledge how important it is that we don’t allow these concerns to affect our health. Facing them head-on reduces brain fog, fatigue and even pain. It takes a lot of practice and we’ll never be perfect at it, but we can reduce the stress that adversely affects out health.

How do you handle “worries?” I’d love to have feedback from all of you!

Deb

P.S. There is an epidemic of bedbugs across the US and Europe. They are not caused by dirty homes. In my case, I live in a large, clean apartment building. One tenant got bedbugs and then they spread. People who travel are also at risk of getting them, but there are precautions they can take to lower that risk.

 

A Most Satisfying “Wasted” Day

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I’m still trying to take a “time-out” from life’s whirl. Today has been the first truly successful day! No knocking, no calls and no chores were nagging at me. Oddly, it is 7 pm here and I just now realized how good it’s gone today!

Just so you know-I did feed my cats, wash my face and brush my teeth. But that’s about all. I am still in my pjs and my hair is scrappy from bedhead. What did I do all day? I played with my computer. I started out just needing to print my friend’s boarding pass for her flight to Seattle tomorrow. But first an article on CNN caught my attention. Then another and another. You know how it goes! Then I saw an ad for a hair growth shampoo and that sent me scurrying for reviews (every time chronic fatigue flares I lose a substantial amount of hair) and onto Amazon to price it and read more reviews. Then I shopped around on Amazon for a while(no buying today). I dare anyone to look at only one thing while on Amazon! In between sites I played many games of Solitaire. I didn’t get the boarding pass printed until the middle of the afternoon.

I did do some useful things-printed out an article, with illustrations, titled “The 10-minute Gentle Yoga Routine That Can Help You Lose Weight” and another called “7 Best Yoga Poses to Curb a Binge.” They both came from Prevention magazine’s website. I did pet each of my cats every time one of them became suddenly love-starved. And I did eat lunch-hot, delicious  Meals on Wheels food that my friend brought me after he got done with his meal. I usually have to walk over to the kitchen at our apartment complex to eat lunch so I didn’t count Steve’s knock as a door knock today!

My point is not to bore you with the details of my day, but rather to make a point of how a lazy, fooling-around day can sometimes be satisfying. There’s no way I could live every day like I did today, but I feel like I had a true “time-out” day. I feel gratified to have had a quiet day to myself; for once I don’t feel guilty for “wasting” my day; I feel too satisfied and relaxed for guilt to nag me.

What are my plans for the rest of the day? After dinner I’m going to do some coloring!

Deb