Still here. . .

rose-174817_1920I don’t quite know what is going on with me. What I do know is that I’ve had complete writer’s block when I usually am so eager to post on my blog. I’ve tried, yet seem unable to write a coherent post.

I’m wondering if I bit off a bit more than I could chew with starting to exercise while trying to withdraw from Lyrica. I’m not going to lie; it’s hell getting off of Lyrica. My doctor is on board with me stopping it and is lowering my dosage slowly and carefully. However, each decrease results in days of nausea, diarrhea, body aches, sweats. chills, weakness and a powerful headache. It then takes more days/weeks to regain my strength.

I’m definitely not losing my courage. I can see and feel improvements in my body with each decrease. Last night I realized that the fluid retention has been reduced to the point where I recognized my feet and ankles for the first time in years!

Julie’s last two posts on Counting My Spoons have been about acceptance and making changes. As I was reading her blog, I realized that acceptance does not mean complacency. Recently I’ve needed to make changes to the medications I take and in the way I understand and accomplish self-care. Working out is difficult and uncomfortable when you haven’t exercised in 12 years. Getting off of meds (yes, there are a few I don’t need anymore) that you’ve relied on for many years is also difficult and uncomfortable. Yet, I know with certainty that these are the things I need to do for my health.

I guess I can’t really say I bit off more than I could chew. I’m listening to my body and giving it what it needs right now and of course that affects my mind and emotions as well. To say I have brain fog is putting it mildly. Hopefully, this post is the end of this difficult and uncomfortable writer’s block I’ve had. Please stay with me as I go through this time of transition.

Deb